Wednesday, September 29, 2010

The Waiting Game

~ Psalm 84  How lovely are Your dwelling places, O LORD of hosts!  My soul longed and even yearned for the courts of the LORD; My heart and flesh sing for joy to the living God.  The bird also has found a house, And the swallow a nest for herself, where she may lay her young.  Even Your altars, O LORD of hosts, My King and My God.  How blessed are those who dwell in Your house!  They are ever praising You.  Selah.  How blessed is the man whose strength is in You, In whose heart are the highways to Zion!  Passing through the valley of Bacca they make it a spring; The early rain also covers it with blessings.  They go from strength to strength, Everyone of them appears before God in Zion.  O LORD God of hosts, hear my prayer; Give ear, O God of Jacob!  Selah.  Behold our shield, O God, And look upon the face of Your anointed.  For a day in Your courts is better than a thousand outside.  I would rather stand at the threshold of the house of my God Than dwell in the tents of wickedness.  For the LORD God is a sun and a shield; The LORD gives grace and glory; No good thing does He withhold from those who walk uprightly.  O LORD of hosts, How blessed is the man who trusts in You!

When we couldn't wait any longer we finally broke down and called the Dr.'s office.  That kind of makes it sound like we waited a really long time, but honestly, we only held out until about 1:30.  If I had know how little information they had for us, I would have kept waiting.

Basically, all the Dr.'s assistant had for us was that the Tumor Board decided that surgery would be Mom's best option.  When I asked if that meant a mastectomy, the nurse said that he would talk with us about that at her next appointment.  Dr. Schuss will be out of town all next week and so her next appointment isn't until the 11th of October.  The nurse said that he doesn't want to see her sooner because he wants to give the red spot over the tumor time to fade or get worse.  She did say that they would most likely schedule her surgery for that same week.  After we hung up the phone and were all talking we got confused, because if they are doing her surgery for sure that week, they must not be going to attempt to use Chemo to shrink it first.  But if that's the case, why wouldn't they just tell us that over the phone?  Good grief, getting info out of a Dr is like squeezing blood from a turnip!  Who knows if they will have other options for us that Monday.

The red spot has not really changed much over the last few days, but we are still trusting and praying.  We are all trying not to be frustrated by the slow trickle of information.  I guess we all thought it would be pretty cut and dried and things would start happening right away.  None of us, (Shan, my mom or myself) have much in the way of patience it seems.

On a brighter note, we decided to drown our sorrows at 5 Guys Burgers & Fries after our uninformative phone call.  Shan and I had never been, so this was a brand new experience for us.  Scott was able to meet us and we laughed and ate and had a grand ol' time just being us.  Afterward, Shan tried to get us all to pose for a few pictures, and it proved to be an hilarious attempt.

I will leave you with a couple so that you too can join our crazy family for a few minutes.

Standing on the promises of God,


  1. Know we are praying and that God is bigger than what is going on in Anita. The waiting game is not easy and can be very hard but God is bigger than that too. There are a lot of people who will be praying and holding all of you up. You are greatly loved.

  2. I don't know if this helps, but I have several friends who have had breast cancer and their experiences sound similar to what you are experiencing. Lots of waiting, then a decision to be made. Then waiting again followed by another decision to be made. I, too, thought the process would be more cut and dried, but it isn't so. Each of my friends eventually fell into the wait/decide pattern and ultimately had very good results.

    Looks like you all had a great time together! I love looking at those smiling faces!

    Sleep tight, my friends.

    xoxox Heather

  3. Hi Dori - Your mom is in our prayers! I heard on the news today that October is breast cancer month and they said that it is now 98% curable!

    Here is a favorite quote of mine:

    There is no circumstance, no trouble, no testing, that can ever touch me until, first of all, it has gone past God and past Christ, right through to me. If it has come that far, it has come with a great purpose, which I may not understand at the moment. But I refuse to become panicky, as I lift up my eyes to Him and accept it as coming from the throne of God for some great purpose of blessing to my own heart.
    -Alan Redpath

    God is good and faithful! We will continue to pray!